Why?- Day 1

Why? Why am I writing this blog? Maybe I miss school and writing my thoughts so often, maybe I am bored, maybe I just have to hear myself think out loud. All of these are true, but the number one reason I am writing this blog is to relive and remember this experience into motherhood. I want to love my choice more than anything I have ever done. I want my children to see that happiness exists and that marriage can be forever. I want them to know that two people can create a family and be entirely joyful and fullfilled. We live in a world of too many questions and to many "what ifs". I think its time we stop asking questions and find that love can be real.
You see I have been plagued with the desire of motherhood, but I have also been so afraid of it. I am a self proclaimed feminist. I believe woman should take control of their lives and give everything they have to their education and career. I fight with myself everyday on the complicated and almost unrealistic idea of career and motherhood. The haunting question is do you choose both or one? This is my journey into choosing only one.